My moments of 2017 have been extraordinary. I don’t believe in good years or bad; I see time as a forever rollercoaster. So there are always improvements and I guess always a resolution or two.
Starting a blog
5 years of procrastination and finally in January I became a blogger. I went on to virtually meet those who seemed to share my feelings. It was this great discovery; I could delve into my deepest thoughts and find a like on the other side.
Lauzie’s Lifestyle became The Style of Laura Jane upon reflection through my holiday – when I wasn’t dancing or sipping a cocktail.
I suffered a month of technical issues and all my followers and interaction; statistics a blogger tracks, sped through a downhill decline, as though I put my laptop on a ski slope. So switching to self-hosted was tough at first. I kept thinking – have I made a mistake?
Now however, I feel more successful. Through Google statistics, I realised that there are numerous factors; organic users, bounce rate, time spent on page… And the bigger picture – how do you find longevity? Would people still read if I was no longer associated to WordPress?
Becoming a writer
Blogging was my initial plan to get myself out there. I made a point of creating interviews and sharing a wide variety of pieces. I didn’t want my makeup background to typecast me to beauty.
My next step involved a lot of emails. Once published on a different blog, I applied to a digital magazine and then to print. There was an awful period of wait. It’s draining when you don’t hear back and you’re left wondering where it went wrong.
The end of the year gained momentum. I now write for a brand, have an internship next month at a publishing company for educational experience and I have joined as deputy editor of a new online start-up magazine.
Following my dreams
People say to me “were you good at English in school?”
I reply “no”.
I was fairly average and did not stand out as a potential writer; particularly in college where I was repeatedly told how tough journalism, the declining industry is.
In some ways I only had myself for comfort. People declaratively told me that I should stop being lazy and find an actual job; one that they assumed was more in my reach. It was likewise when I trained as a makeup artist. My moments of 2017 become blurred when I remember the highlight of understanding that I can do whatever I set out to achieve.
Perhaps it was my years of diary writing, reading poetry books and listening to rap to curate my own; somewhere I found my voice through words. I believe that while university is crucial and to some a necessary step, you cannot learn creativity. You just have to keep scribbling until you find your art.
Travelling to Ibiza
As I’m not a ‘party-girl’ – I love going out but not on a routine basis, I didn’t have Ibiza in my mind as somewhere to visit.
Thankfully I changed; Ibiza is such a beautiful place that you cannot summarise it to one idea. It’s the kind of holiday that you can do yearly and continually experience differently. This is my must-read everything you need to know about Ibiza.
It taught me to relax, have fun and just be me. I hate that I over worry; feelings of nervousness wondering how others will judge. There however, I was carefree. I didn’t even fret that I asked 3 people in one restaurant to take a photo – the sunset kept editing.
One of my favourite photos has my underwear on show – completely unintentional. Of course my mother messaged immediately to complain. I love the photo regardless, due to just being caught in the instance, over daydreaming to notice.
Changing my diet to vegan
Vegan or maybe plant-based; I know veganism incorporates a full lifestyle switch.
I had wanted to cut out animal produce for a while. I genuinely could not imagine life without cheese or prawns with my noodles. In addition, I didn’t have the guts. I was aware that my family and friends wouldn’t comprehend. Last week one of them said “you can’t eat dairy!” I feel better and slowly my habits have adapted. I’m likely to wake up now and crave choc-shot instead of nutella.
With all the happiest comes the opposite end; moments of 2017 which I may rather forget.
Growth is about evolving and that means occasionally closing chapters. At school it was about popularity which meant large birthday parties and trying to blend in with the biggest clique. The older I get, the less I want crowds. You cannot compare genuine close people – whether 1, 2 or 5, with groups of ordinary – maybe I’ll be there for you.
Equally, walking away from a relationship was difficult. The dreamer in me was determined to hold on to every seam until each burst. When I put my goals to long-term, it became easier. I couldn’t appraise myself next to a guy who showed me minimal respect.
Cutting my hair
I hated the layering in my hair; it felt like my strands were flicking in every direction screaming “run away”.
I spent two days debating before I knew I wanted my hair turned to a bob. Physical appearance leads paths to internal. I came out as a confident, passionate woman. Whether it made me ‘less attractive’ or ‘less feminine’ is irrelevant. I made a choice on my own and I stuck to my instincts.
Modelling photo shoots
Working with photographers began in 2016. My shoots were mainly lingerie and ideals of obvious ‘sex appeal’. This year I concluded that I wanted a touch of class; an increase in fashion and outfits that I have put together. I’m currently communicating with brands on wearing clothing not belonging to my wardrobe.
I’m ending my moments of 2017 with a note on my great-uncle passing a few days ago. He had the same aggressive cancer as my grandma. Apparently it’s rare and spreads quickly. I was not that close; considering my grandma didn’t keep much in contact with him, I saw him here and there.
I did go to his daughter’s wedding in the summer and again to his house. I learnt that the character officer Steel from Fireman Sam was inspired by him as a fireman. He was friends with the creator.
Overall, it made me grasp the shortness of life. It’s written again and again, nevertheless, you have to appreciate whoever enters your world at any given phase. I’m glad I got to know him better and spend the time that I did. I hope to be in the alive in the present for 2018.
Moments of 2017
The year I believed in me and boarded the train to my passions. I hope the seeds planted will begin to rise.
What are your moments of 2017?